Ice Age 3 - The Movie

Second week of the strike has now begun. Although I enjoy the time off I’m still finding myself bored at times. Haven’t been able to write much in here as I know I should be, but I have been off busy with things around my house. Went bowling Saturday night and didn’t do to bad, bowled a 115 and a 145 not to shabby but hey it’s better than all gutter balls right? I’ve been following the news about the strike and they have been in talks for days now with nothing solved. This strike has hurt a lot of people, and although GM might not suffer from it what about all of us who aren’t working right now and making a profit off the selling of the trucks that they have stocked? Get it together people.

Have you ever loved or been in love with someone that didn’t love you back?

Have you ever wondered what was so wrong with you that they couldn’t love you but only attack you because of the fact you did love them?

Have you allowed yourself to be put down by them, having them talk bad about you to their friends and family? having them say mean and hurtful things to you? But because you cared so much about them you just took what they had to say and kept trying to be a good person and kept trying to make them love you?

Have you ever done or said things to them to hurt them because you yourself was hurting inside maybe by their actions towards you? Things that you wouldn’t normally do?

If you answered yes to any of these questions then your not alone. I myself was one of these people as I fell in love with my best friend. We can’t help who we fall in love with it just happens and being that I spent a lot of time with him the past four years, laughing, talking, going out, playing video games, and yes having sex with him, that my feelings towards him turned into love for him. Do I regret any of it? No I don’t as I know that I have been a good friend and lover to him even though I may of said and done things to hurt him, my heart was always in the right place.

I have done things I know hurt him and made him lose trust me in and for that I’m not very proud of, because I know I’m a good person inside and out. And if he would of taken the time to see past all the bad things he pointed out in me he would of seen all that was good in me and that I honestly did care for and loved him with all my heart.

I learned a lot from this experience and I think I came out a stronger person from it. Never be ashamed of who you love no matter if they love you back or not. Learn from your mistakes. Walk tall and know that even though they might of pointed out all your bad qualities know that they them selfs aren’t without faults either. And that maybe they were quick to point them out because of their own insecurities that they can’t face.

Know that you are good enough for them no matter what they say to you or their friends and family about you because you are just as every bit as good as they are maybe more. Never doubt who you as a person as there was something good inside you that drew them to you and that something is still there.

You know who you are and I want to take this time to once again tell you how sorry I am for hurting you and losing your trust and I hope that one day you can not only forgive me but forget as I have with you. Because even though you won’t ever admit you have hurt me just as much by words and things you have done. Your friendship means a lot to me and if it means that I have to let you go then so be it I value your friendship that much (not that I want to). I know I have made mistakes I’m human we all make them from time to time but that don’t make me any less of a person. You are a good person, your handsome, funny, smart, and someone I am proud to call a friend. And maybe one day you can say these things about me again. Ok well maybe not handsome…lol I am still that person you once trusted and cared about just made some bad decisions some which I’m not proud of and ones that I know I will never make again.

So to everyone thats ever been in love with someone that hasn’t returned that love never give up never look back and keep moving forward as you are every bit as good as they are. They are the ones missing out if they can’t take the time to get to know YOU for who you really are. One last thing always be positive

First day home after being laid off yesterday, and I must say I got a lot done today. Although the strike talks aren’t looking to good right now as there have not been any scheduled, hopefully they will  begin soon and reach an agreement. I can’t really afford to be off very long or I will fall behind in most of my payments. Besides getting a vacation I can get some much needed things done around my house that have been neglected, like a good cleaning, washing of curtains and such as spring hopefully is right around the corner. Another good thing about not having to work today was I didn’t have to drive in the snow storm we got this morning that was a good thing as I have a small car and it tends to go all over the road not a good thing when you drive over 40 miles through snow. Anyways lets just hope they settle this strike and that it don’t last more than two weeks.

One day my mother was out and my dad was in charge of me and my brother
who is four years older than I am. I was maybe 3 and a half years old
and had just recovered from an accident in which my arm had been broken
among other injuries.